March 30, 2012

There's Always Good in Bad


"Menyebalkan!"
mungkin itu adalah kata pertama yang mau aku gunakan untuk mendiskripsikan hari ini. Kenapa? Well, there are many problems I met at school and home. Pertama, jam tangan yang akhirnya dikembalikan olah kakak setelah lebih dari 1 tahun  dia pinjam  HILANG! Lucunya lagi, yang bikin kepala orang-orang rumah sampai geleng kepala adalah, hilangnya jam tangan itu adalah di RUMAH! Gila kan?! Di rumah sendiri kok bisa hilang? Dicari kemana pun enggak ketemu. Dari lantai bawah ke lantai dua, balik lagi kebawah, mengacak-acak lemari-lemari buku, menggeledah tas, mengintrogasi orang-orang, dan sejenisnya dalam kurun waktu 2 hari (hari ini hari ketiga) tetapi hasilnya NIHIL. Kecewa? Banget! Parahnya ibuku malah mengadukan peristiwa hilangnya jam tangan ini ke ayahku yang jelas-jelas baru menyelesaikan tugasnya di luar kota dan akan kembali ke Jakarta HARI INI. Alhasil? Ayah bbm ibu yang isinya kurang lebih (untukku) Dana harus siap-siap saat saya sampai rumah nanti. It's quite easy to understand, isn't it? GOOD. Dan aku cuma bisa pasrah. Berdoa dalam hati semoga malam hari tak kunjung datang, supaya.....enggak ketemu ayah.
Kedua, ada latian volley dan dari dulu aku sangat silly dalam olahraga ini (well, sebenarnya aku sama sekali tak berbakat olahraga kecuali renang). Pasti ending dari main volley adalah: pergelangan tangan merah, sakit dan mempermalukan diri karena yaaa... tak dapat main volley tadi. Dan benar dugaanku. Pergelangan tanganku merah dan terasa menyakitkan. Berita lebih bagusnya lagi: Sit Up 20 kali. Apa-apaan itu? Sudah capek, sakit pula, dan malah di suruh sit up karena bola yang di-serve tak dapat melewati net!
Ketiga... yang paling menyedihkan. Hari ini ada Praktikum Fisika dan biasanya aku paling senang dapat jam pelajaran ini. Gedungnya bagus, nyaman, comfortable, top deh. Tapi tadi itu disaster banget! Tanpa sengaja, aku membakar kalorimeter dengan meletakkannya di atas bunsen. Itu ketidak-sengajaan tentunya. Aku salah meletakkan kalorimeter yang seharusnya kudiamkan. Harusnya aku memanaskan air dengan menggunakan gelas ukur. Di antara kelompok tidak ada yang sadar kesalahan itu karena... ehem kami bercanda nyaris sepanjang pelajaran. Sungguh kejadian tadi membuatku malu. Masalah ganti? Itu tak sebanding dengan rasa malu yang kau alami jika kau memiliki pengalaman yang sama denganku. 
Keempat, rapotku belum juga dilegalisir padahal aku membutuhkannya untuk pertukaran pelajar. Dan acara yang mau kuikuti ini hanya ada sekali di umurku. Untuk ikut pertukaran pelajar, aku harus merupakan murid kelas 10 SMA. Dan itu hanya sekali kan? (Kecuali kalau aku tidak naik, huh jangan sampai!). Aku dan temanku nabila, tadi merasa bahwa kami seperti bola. Ditendang sana dan sini. Keluar TU masuk TU hanya untuk mendapatkan beberapa stamp di atas beberapa lembar fotokopi rapot. HELL! Setelahnya kami akhirnya diterima dan salah seorang pegawai TU berkata bahwa akan segera di stamp. Nyatanya? Sampai jam pulang rapot kami masih belum diapa-apakan! Akhirnya? Kami menunggu lagi dalam waktu (yang menurutku) cukup lama! 
Aku mengumpat...sungguh. Dalam hati terus-terusan aku berkata, kau tau? Aku tak harus menjelaskannya di sini kan?  
Tapi tiba-tiba semua berubah ketika melihat Zack. JANGAN PERGI DULU! Aku bukan ingin menceritakan apa pun tentang zack. Sungguh. Tapi kau harus dengar sedikit ceritaku tentangnya (padahal tadi bilang bukan mau cerita tentang zack).
Jadi saat aku dan seorang temanku melewati pagar sekolah, hendak meninggalkan sekolah, aku bertemu zack and his friends. Cool! kami berjalan berdua dan saat kami melewati mereka salah seorang temannya bertanya, "Pantas dari tadi kau merapikan diri. Ternyata..." <--- maksudnya ini apa? kenapa enggak dilanjutkan? siaaal! Aku mau tau. Mungkin kau mengira aku ini lebih dari over tapi... boleh kan kalau berharap, meski pun harapan itu belum tentu atau tak akan terwujud dan kau mengetahuinya? Aku mungkin terlalu bodoh, aku tidak tau teman zack tadi itu berbicara dengan zack atau temannya yang lain. Tapi debaran jantungku terus berdebar kencang bahkan saat aku sudah tiba di rumah. And whooosh! Entah bagaimana ceritanya, aku merasa mood-ku lebih baik. 
Aku beristirahat sebentar. Mendinginkan diri dalam kamar tidurku yang sedingin es. Bersiap-siap untuk ibadah siang. Setelahnya aku tidak merasa kesal lagi dengan hari ini. 
Pertama, aku dapat menemukan jam tanganku. Dan aku tidak menemukannya di rumah. Melainkan di MOBIL. Sungguh aku benar-benar careless. Dan aku dapat menemukannya hanya dengan satu petunjuk: Ingatanku yang melayang entah bagaimana ke saat aku dan keluargaku merayakan ulang tahun adikku di PIM. Gila memang.
Kedua, diriku dapat berpikir positif setelah memberi keyakinan bahwa hukuman yang tadi diterima saat jam pelajaran olahraga baik untukku. Hey, perutku jadi lebih ramping!
Ketiga, aku mendapat pelajaran hari ini, aku tidak boleh menyepelekan hal-hal yang bahkan sangat kecil (lagi-lagi...). Aku punya pengalaman sekarang, bagaimana sesuatu yang kecil dapat mengakibatkan kecelakaan besar.
Keempat..... aku tak tahu harus berkata apa tentang ini. Lebih tepatnya aku masih bingung. Hei, mereka menjadikan aku dan temanku sebagai bola untuk nyaris dua hari (jika hari ini juga dihitung).
Akhirnya aku dapat menyimpulkan: SESUATU YANG BURUK DAPAT MENJADI LEBIH BAIK UNTUKMU JIKA KAU DAPAT MELIHATNYA DARI 2 SISI DAN BUKANNYA TERUS MENERUS MENYALAHKANNYA. hemmm... *Melihat dari atas ke bawah, dan ke atas lagi* Panjang banget, ya? *muka polos* Okay guys, sorry for wasting your time, but I hope my story can let you help think positive. Hoping you enjoy your day :)


Random Post :P

Hi guys! Finally I have a time to make a new post :D YEAAAAAY *feeling-happy*

This post might give you no information about something or my feeling for Zack. Just do it for fun. Well, actually when I took these photos there was no class at school. It means that we (me and friends) had a free time. My friend, Dimie is a boy who likes to play with his jacket (Idk why, so don't ask me about that). He made such funny expression at that time (when these photos were taken). Just check it out :



  sorry for the light of blitz!! 



March 20, 2012

My Unspoken Words in Lyrics

"I’ve been spending all my time just thinking about ya. I don't know what to do, I think I’m fallin’ for you. I’ve been waiting all my life and now I found ya. I don’t know what to do, I think I’m fallin’ for you.. I’m fallin’ for you..."
-Falling For You

"I'll be there forever. You will see that it's better. All our hopes and our dreams will come true. I will not disappoint you, I'll be right there for you 'til the end... The end of time. Please be mine"
-Please Be Mine

"Nothing's gonna change my love for you, you ought to know by now how much I love you. One thing you can be sure of, I'll never ask for more than your love Nothing's gonna change my love for you, you ought to know by now how much I love you. The world may change my whole life through, but nothing's gonna change my love for you"
-Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You

"I would give it all, I would sacrifice. Don’t tell me it’s not worth fighting for. I can’t help it, there’s nothing I want more. You know it’s true... Everything I do, I do it for you"
-Everything I Do

"So I say a little prayer and hope my dreams will take me there. Where the skies are blue to see you once again, my love. Overseas from coast to coast to find the place I love the most. Where the fields are green to see you once again, my love"
-My Love

"And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town. I haven't seen it in awhile since she brought you down. You say you're fine. I know you better than that. Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that?"
-You Belong With Me

"I remember what you wore on the first day. You came into my life and I thought, "Hey, you know, this could be something". 'Cause everything you do and words you say, you know that it all takes my breath away and now I'm left with nothing"
-Two is Better than One

"I wanna hold you close under the rain. I wanna kiss your smile and feel the pain. I know what's beautiful looking at you. In a world of lies, you are the truth"
-When You Tell Me that You Love Me

"It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart. Without saying a word, you can light up the dark. Try as I may I could never explain what I hear when you don't say a thing"
-When You Say Nothing at All

"Darling, do you feel my heart beating? Do you understand? Do you feel the same or am I only dreaming?"
-Eternal Flamet

"I, I really like it when the moon looks like a toenail and I love you when you say my name"
-Introducing Me


March 19, 2012

If Only it's not an Imagination

"I'm never gonna say goodbye, cos I never wanna see you cry. I swore to you my love would remain and I swear it all over again and I... I'm never gonna treat you bad, cos I never wanna see you sad. I swore to share your joy and your pain and I swear it all over again...all over again"
-swear it again

If only there's a boy who wants to sing it for me and after that he will do exactly what he promise me. Kind of imagination maybe. But for me, a person who love fairytale so badly, I want romantic things like that. That's just soo sweet. Just like a prince will do in the fairytale.

A boy who will never say goodbye to me just because he doesn't wanna see me cry, never gonna treat me bad because he doesn't wanna see me sad. The one who swear to share my joy and pain, whose love would remain.

So bad, huh, that's only a dream. Nowadays it's so hard to find a boy like that, hmm...

a boy whose hands fit with mine

I will be the luckiest girl in the world if I have a boyfriend like that :')

March 10, 2012

In a Short Life

I've heard a lot about this word : "Life is short, don't waste it".
I know that but somehow I still made that words as joke with some friends. Well, that's before that day...

It was Thursday, March 8th and I was at school. It was recess time and there was a noise. Since it was recess, I didn't really mind about it. I was eating my lunch, and continue eating until my friend came cried. What's happened? I closed my lunch box and came to her. Asked what happened. She told me that one of her friend just passed away. I didn't believe that for sure, but when I went out the class...well there were many people cried. The girl who passed away was a student of X- C. This class is quite close with mine (X-E)

Suddenly..., I just felt quite afraid of something called death. One thing that I used to joke, now is the reality. Humm... 

March 07, 2012

Welcome To My Life


Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on, turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like, to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Tittle   : Welcome to My Life
band   : Simple Plan

1 Year Ago

when I looked at the calendar, I was shocked a bit. Today is March 7th. And.... well nothing special for today. But it was really amazing one year ago. Today is my Failed Anniversary. It's already a year without I realized it. He, my last ex was quite cool when he asked me to be his girlfriend. He came to my class and said his feeling. I liked him so much until I couldn't say anything than "Yes!"

I had been his girlfriend for 2 months until my parents knew our relationship. We decided (actually me) to end the relationship. About 2 months after that, he asked me to be his gf again, because we were going to enter the high school so we wouldn't meet each other since we would go to 2 different high schools. I denied. 

So that was our story. An old story. There's nothing important about it since he has been dating another girl, and I like someone else, Zack. But still, this story makes me flashback to those beautiful memories :')

March 06, 2012

Do I?

Today I had a chemistry class. The teacher of this subject always let her students to discuss things except on test. I was doing my exercise when suddenly my friend called me. I looked at her and asked "yes?" kind of offering help if she need. But she said something that really made me blush. 

 "You look prettier recently?"

I was so surprised and only can said, "huh?" 

She laughed a bit and asked me, "Are you in love with someone"

I shocked. "How do you know that?"

"I know things like that", she said.

I only starred at her without saying a word. What did she say?

She smiled at me. I smiled back. And did my work again. 

No one know who Zack is. So, one thing I wish, I hope she doesn't and won't know the one I love. Except I be Zack's girlfriend.

Could it be One-Sided Love, AGAIN?!

Dor-Der-Dor...

mungkin itulah yang lagi aku rasain sekarang. Entah bagaimana ceritanya, tapi... ada perasaan sakit juga dalam hati ini. Tadi sebelum pelajaran bahasa Inggris, ada istirahat. Dan dibanding berada di dalam kelas yang agak berisik karena bakalan ada test interview, akhirnya aku pilih untuk menghabiskan sisa waktu di luar kelas. Saat itu ada Zack, yang ternyata menghabiskan waktunya (bolos?) di sekitar kelasku.

Aku sok-sok sibuk melihat ke arah lapangan padahal diam-diam, aku juga lagi "nguping" obrolan dia sama teman-temannya. dan dari situ tiba-tiba aku denger dia ngobrol sama teman sekelasku kayak begini (Z=Zack, F=Friend):
F: "Lo jadi pedekate sama dia"
Z : ........... <---- gadenger jawab apa
F : "Kalau lo sampai jadian lo berani kasih PeJe berapa ke gue hah?" *ngakak* "dia pastilah juga suka sama lo secara lo ganteng kok"
Z : "Emang sih gue ganteng, banyak lagi yang kenal gue, tapi...." <--- tiba-tiba orang-orang dateng dan kalimat dia hilang ditelan suara yang lainnya.

Percakapan itu, APA MAKSUDNYA? T_T

dan sumpah, aku bete bangetttt dengarnya!


Ga berarti aku beneran suka dia sih tapi, gejala-gejalanya itu ada. Itu yang aku khawatirkan. Padahal dia juga bukan milik aku, jadi ngapain juga aku mesti peduli, coba? Huh T___T *ke-be-go-an-ya-ng-na-m-ba-h*

March 05, 2012

Last Night

Hari ini....lagi-lagi nggak sekolah. Semuanya cuma gara-gara gejala pilek ini. Oke aku tau, pasti ada yang bertanya, "Kok lebay banget sih? Gejala flu aja langsung nggak masuk.". Tapi, well begitulah saya. Sedikit aja kena serangan dan wuuusssh bisa langsung terkena serangan asthma (aku punya asthma yang udah parah) dan pasti habis itu mesti rawat inap. Akhir-akhir ini aku mencoba untuk tidak menghabiskan uang dan waktuku di rumah sakit. Kau tau? Seandainya uangnya dikumpulkan, aku pasti sudah dapat mobil T_T harga rumah sakit mahal sih. Karena penyakit aku udah lama dan sebenarnya ada komplikasi juga, jadinya nggak boleh ditanganin sembarangan, masuk kelas rumah sakitnya pun yang.... *glek* ga tega ngomongnya. Udah gitu bokap-nyokap jadi harus rela capek buat nemenin juga. Sedih ingatnya huhu

Eh kok malah ngebahas beginian sih? Padahal niatnya mau cerita-cerita tentang mimpi semalam -____- Oke langsung to the point aja ya ceritanya.....

Jadi, semalam lagi-lagi aku mimpiin dia, setelah beberapa hari ini nggak mimpi tentang dia. Di mimpi yang semalam itu bentuknya seperti lanjutan dari mimpi-mimpi sebelumnya. Aku mimpi, sekolahku ngadain study tour ke sebuah tempat, yang anggaplah namanya "Lalaland". Di Lalaland kebetulan aku dapat satu grup sama dia, Zack. Sebenarnya senang juga sih, tapi sayang aku nggak bisa tunjukkin wajah senang itu saking malunya. Semua berjalan biasa saja sampai, waktu makan siang. Nah di waktu makan siang ini, Zack pilih tempat yang pas berhadapan langsung sama aku. Dan ada percakapan begini : (D= me, Z= Zack)

Z : "Kamu kenapa? Dari tadi mukanya datar begitu"
D : "Nggak ada apa-apa" <--- kaget diajak ngomong pakai aku-kamu
Z : "Kalau ada masalah cerita aja "
D : (hening) <--- gatau mau ngomong apa
Z : "Aku punya salah sama kamu?" 
D : "nggak"
Z : "biasanya kalau cewek begini, pasti ada kesalahan yang dilakuin cowoknya kan?"
D : (bengong)
Z : "Aku tadi beli ini, buat sekalian minta maaf ke kamu. Kamu mau maafin kan?"
D : (shock, sejak kapan jadian?)
Z : Kamu mau jadi cewek aku lagi, kan?"

Oke fine, emang percakapannya aneh (BANGET) begitu. Malahan di mimpi percakapannya lebih panjang, tapi sebagian lupa, hahaa... Hal yang paling menyedihkan adalah, pas di mimpi itu, ada bagian di mana aku bilang sama diriku sendiri begini : "Dan sadaarrrr, ini cuma mimpi aja kok. Jangan nge-fly begitu juga dong!"
Setelahnya aku langsung bangun dari tidur. Jujur aja, rasanya mau nangis, tapi yah... *blushing* seneng juga hahaa <---- udah mulai gila. 
Kayaknya segitu dulu deh cerita gaje bin aneh ini. Maaf banget buang-buang waktu untuk orang yang membaca :P

New Template!!!

Hi, guys, when you come back to this blog, I'm sure you know there are many differences from the last time you came here. Well, I just tried to change my blog template. The new template is more interesting than the last one. But to tell the truth... Idk why I feel kinda weird. All the widgets got deleted. So I had to set once again. Some of them I can't find anymore (so bad T__T ). I might feel sad, but I mustn't regret anything. The one who decided to change the template is me, so.... it was my choice. By the way, the worst thing ever is, my reader detector is new and all the old data was deleted. *calmed down* Then I think the first thing to do after post it is eat chocolate. Hoping it will make my heart feel better :') 

March 04, 2012

Pink in a Boring Day

About two months ago, December 2011, my mom worked for few days at Bangkok, Thai. She came back to Indonesia after finish her work in the mid of December. There were many things she bought for me, but what I like the most are one of my gowns and a shirt. The patterns are same, flower. I really love them. What makes me more happy is those clothes make me look prettier each time I wear them. Especially the shirt, which has pink as the color. 

Some days ago I was really bored. So, I took some photos wearing the top. Here it is :







I didn't wear any make over. Actually, I also kind of person who don't like to edit my own photos. Well that's who I am :)