Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on, turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like, to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Tittle   : Welcome to My Life

band   : Simple Plan

1 Year Ago

when I looked at the calendar, I was shocked a bit. Today is March 7th. And.... well nothing special for today. But it was really amazing one year ago. Today is my Failed Anniversary. It's already a year without I realized it. He, my last ex was quite cool when he asked me to be his girlfriend. He came to my class and said his feeling. I liked him so much until I couldn't say anything than "Yes!"

I had been his girlfriend for 2 months until my parents knew our relationship. We decided (actually me) to end the relationship. About 2 months after that, he asked me to be his gf again, because we were going to enter the high school so we wouldn't meet each other since we would go to 2 different high schools. I denied. 

So that was our story. An old story. There's nothing important about it since he has been dating another girl, and I like someone else, Zack. But still, this story makes me flashback to those beautiful memories :')

Do I?

Today I had a chemistry class. The teacher of this subject always let her students to discuss things except on test. I was doing my exercise when suddenly my friend called me. I looked at her and asked "yes?" kind of offering help if she need. But she said something that really made me blush. 

 "You look prettier recently?"

I was so surprised and only can said, "huh?" 

She laughed a bit and asked me, "Are you in love with someone"

I shocked. "How do you know that?"

"I know things like that", she said.

I only starred at her without saying a word. What did she say?

She smiled at me. I smiled back. And did my work again. 

No one know who Zack is. So, one thing I wish, I hope she doesn't and won't know the one I love. Except I be Zack's girlfriend.

Could it be One-Sided Love, AGAIN?!

Dor-Der-Dor...

mungkin itulah yang lagi aku rasain sekarang. Entah bagaimana ceritanya, tapi... ada perasaan sakit juga dalam hati ini. Tadi sebelum pelajaran bahasa Inggris, ada istirahat. Dan dibanding berada di dalam kelas yang agak berisik karena bakalan ada test interview, akhirnya aku pilih untuk menghabiskan sisa waktu di luar kelas. Saat itu ada Zack, yang ternyata menghabiskan waktunya (bolos?) di sekitar kelasku.

Aku sok-sok sibuk melihat ke arah lapangan padahal diam-diam, aku juga lagi "nguping" obrolan dia sama teman-temannya. dan dari situ tiba-tiba aku denger dia ngobrol sama teman sekelasku kayak begini (Z=Zack, F=Friend):
F: "Lo jadi pedekate sama dia"
Z : ........... <---- gadenger jawab apa
F : "Kalau lo sampai jadian lo berani kasih PeJe berapa ke gue hah?" *ngakak* "dia pastilah juga suka sama lo secara lo ganteng kok"
Z : "Emang sih gue ganteng, banyak lagi yang kenal gue, tapi...." <--- tiba-tiba orang-orang dateng dan kalimat dia hilang ditelan suara yang lainnya.

Percakapan itu, APA MAKSUDNYA? T_T

dan sumpah, aku bete bangetttt dengarnya!


Ga berarti aku beneran suka dia sih tapi, gejala-gejalanya itu ada. Itu yang aku khawatirkan. Padahal dia juga bukan milik aku, jadi ngapain juga aku mesti peduli, coba? Huh T___T *ke-be-go-an-ya-ng-na-m-ba-h*

Last Night

Hari ini....lagi-lagi nggak sekolah. Semuanya cuma gara-gara gejala pilek ini. Oke aku tau, pasti ada yang bertanya, "Kok lebay banget sih? Gejala flu aja langsung nggak masuk.". Tapi, well begitulah saya. Sedikit aja kena serangan dan wuuusssh bisa langsung terkena serangan asthma (aku punya asthma yang udah parah) dan pasti habis itu mesti rawat inap. Akhir-akhir ini aku mencoba untuk tidak menghabiskan uang dan waktuku di rumah sakit. Kau tau? Seandainya uangnya dikumpulkan, aku pasti sudah dapat mobil T_T harga rumah sakit mahal sih. Karena penyakit aku udah lama dan sebenarnya ada komplikasi juga, jadinya nggak boleh ditanganin sembarangan, masuk kelas rumah sakitnya pun yang.... *glek* ga tega ngomongnya. Udah gitu bokap-nyokap jadi harus rela capek buat nemenin juga. Sedih ingatnya huhu

Eh kok malah ngebahas beginian sih? Padahal niatnya mau cerita-cerita tentang mimpi semalam -____- Oke langsung to the point aja ya ceritanya.....

Jadi, semalam lagi-lagi aku mimpiin dia, setelah beberapa hari ini nggak mimpi tentang dia. Di mimpi yang semalam itu bentuknya seperti lanjutan dari mimpi-mimpi sebelumnya. Aku mimpi, sekolahku ngadain study tour ke sebuah tempat, yang anggaplah namanya "Lalaland". Di Lalaland kebetulan aku dapat satu grup sama dia, Zack. Sebenarnya senang juga sih, tapi sayang aku nggak bisa tunjukkin wajah senang itu saking malunya. Semua berjalan biasa saja sampai, waktu makan siang. Nah di waktu makan siang ini, Zack pilih tempat yang pas berhadapan langsung sama aku. Dan ada percakapan begini : (D= me, Z= Zack)

Z : "Kamu kenapa? Dari tadi mukanya datar begitu"

D : "Nggak ada apa-apa" <--- kaget diajak ngomong pakai aku-kamu

Z : "Kalau ada masalah cerita aja "

D : (hening) <--- gatau mau ngomong apa

Z : "Aku punya salah sama kamu?" 

D : "nggak"

Z : "biasanya kalau cewek begini, pasti ada kesalahan yang dilakuin cowoknya kan?"
D : (bengong)

Z : "Aku tadi beli ini, buat sekalian minta maaf ke kamu. Kamu mau maafin kan?"

D : (shock, sejak kapan jadian?)

Z : Kamu mau jadi cewek aku lagi, kan?"

Oke fine, emang percakapannya aneh (BANGET) begitu. Malahan di mimpi percakapannya lebih panjang, tapi sebagian lupa, hahaa... Hal yang paling menyedihkan adalah, pas di mimpi itu, ada bagian di mana aku bilang sama diriku sendiri begini : "Dan sadaarrrr, ini cuma mimpi aja kok. Jangan nge-fly begitu juga dong!"

Setelahnya aku langsung bangun dari tidur. Jujur aja, rasanya mau nangis, tapi yah... *blushing* seneng juga hahaa <---- udah mulai gila. 

Kayaknya segitu dulu deh cerita gaje bin aneh ini. Maaf banget buang-buang waktu untuk orang yang membaca :P

New Template!!!

Hi, guys, when you come back to this blog, I'm sure you know there are many differences from the last time you came here. Well, I just tried to change my blog template. The new template is more interesting than the last one. But to tell the truth... Idk why I feel kinda weird. All the widgets got deleted. So I had to set once again. Some of them I can't find anymore (so bad T__T ). I might feel sad, but I mustn't regret anything. The one who decided to change the template is me, so.... it was my choice. By the way, the worst thing ever is, my reader detector is new and all the old data was deleted. *calmed down* Then I think the first thing to do after post it is eat chocolate. Hoping it will make my heart feel better :') 

Pink in a Boring Day

About two months ago, December 2011, my mom worked for few days at Bangkok, Thai. She came back to Indonesia after finish her work in the mid of December. There were many things she bought for me, but what I like the most are one of my gowns and a shirt. The patterns are same, flower. I really love them. What makes me more happy is those clothes make me look prettier each time I wear them. Especially the shirt, which has pink as the color. 

Some days ago I was really bored. So, I took some photos wearing the top. Here it is :

I didn't wear any make over. Actually, I also kind of person who don't like to edit my own photos. Well that's who I am :)